babyphat

I am getting fat. I feel it creeping up on me.

I had gained 4 pounds at my last prenatal appointment and I've definitely gained at least 2 or 3 more in the past two weeks.

The problem is, I need to eat to keep from feeling sick. I am not gorging, by any means, but all these "mini meals" are catching up with me. Plus, my metabolism is changing. I can literally feel it happening.

I keep asking close friends and family if they can tell I am pregnant by my belly profile, because I sure can, but they all tell me honestly that I just look, well, fat. Thick in the middle. My waistline is totally gone already. I am completely out of any clothes I was wearing a month ago and into all my stretchy things, plus a few maternity items. I broke down today and ordered maternity jeans from Old Navy. They aren't quite as heinous as the maternity jeans that were available last time I was pregnant, in 1997 (maternity clothes are ONE THOUSAND TIMES LESS HORRIBLE than they were a decade ago), but they are still maternity jeans. I've packed up my size eights for the forseeable future.

I love being pregnant. I love my pregnant belly. But I would really like to avoid getting really fat this time. I mean, hey, I'm a newlywed. I want to look cute for the guy. He swears he likes my burgeoning belly, but I'm not sure he's prepared for a burgeoning ass, which really, has nothing to do with growing the baby. I just don't think I am built to be one of those fabulous pregnant women who don't really LOOK pregnant unless you see their belly. My sister in law Nicole is like that. She looked exactly the same while pregnant (four times in six years) except she had a baby belly. The rest of her looked svelte and strong and toned. My body just doesn't seem to roll like that.

I am aiming for 30lbs or less this time (as opposed to the 50 I gained with each previous pregnancy). We'll see how that goes...